Chapter 13

Chapter 13

Tracy is looking for real happiness

    She came back to Hussain, told him what happened and thanked to him.

“You are welcome Miss Tracy. Please follow my advices.”

“I will, doc. Thank you. But, i wonder something if you have time.”

“Sure.”

“Doc, what’s happening to us? I am sure you see a lot of patients, but i am wondering where are we going? These diseases made me think of my life, what am i doing? What is my aim in this life? We are having fun and satisfying our animalistic joys. Eat, drink, have sex. Most of my friends are very happy having fun out, but in the morning after long fun nights, they all seem unhappy. One of my friend killed herself last year. She was the happiest, richest of us. So, if it is money, here money, but where is happiness?” asked Tracy.

“I totally understand you Tracy. I want to tell you my opinion. It is up to you to agree with me or not, ok?”

“Sure,doc.”

“I am Muslim. I believe in Allah. Allah created us, he sent us guides and a guide book. We have two parts, one is our body, second is our spirit. So, when we use a new machine, we should check guidebook right? So, Allah who created both of these two parts sent us a guidebook, The Holy Qur’an. I check it, and i find the happiness there. Allah says,

“Unquestionably, by the remembrance of Allah hearts are assured." (13,20)

So, i try to remember Allah all the time. I want to be close friends with Him. If i have a problem, i remember this:

“But for your Lord be patient.” (74,7)

And i have a great sample, the prophet of Allah, Rasulullah,Muhammad P.B.U.H. He had many problems in his life. He lost his father just before his birth, he lost his mother when he was very young. He lost his grandfather when he was a kid. His relatives, neighbors caused him many troubles after he became prophet. They didn’t like his religion, because this religion was bringing justice, equality, being honest. But, in that time, the first daughters of the families were just being killed when they were very little in this society by their dads. Fathers were ashamed of having a daughter. His religion Islam never accepts such cruelties. So, they didn’t like him at first. He had many difficulties, and he had to move his town. And around 10 years later, he came back with victory.  But, he did not take revenge. He did not kill anybody. Many of them were affected, and converted to Islam. We only need two things to be happy: “Love and submission”. Love to Allah, and submission to him whatever happens. Being thankful when we are in blessings, and being patient when we are in trouble. Allah says,

“Allah being pleased with them and they with Him.”(98,8)  So, we must be surrender first. And about the people you asked, yes, they have money, luxury etc. but no happiness. Allah created our nefs (lower self), ego, very weak. He wants us to educate it. Lower self always wants to satisfy itself. Lower self  thinks of only itself. If we do not control and educate it, it will use us. Lower self is like a riding. If we ride it very well and rule it, we can find happiness. But, if we let it go where ever it wants, it will bring us too, even  to a cliff. People who educated their lower self , and used it well, they have been remembered with their great activities for humanity even thousand years later. So, we should try to success it.”

“Thank you so much Sir. I have a very strong lower self. It always wants to satisfy itself, drinking, smoking, having sex, only satisfying and living on own. These diseases made me think about it now with your help. I will try my best to stop it. I know you are not my shrink, but can i keep visiting you and talking to you about controlling it?”

“Sure, Miss Tracy. My door is always open.”

“Thank you so much.”

Tracy should stop smoking

“But i must tell you something before you leave. You have to quit smoking. Smoking is increasing the risks for HIV positive patients. It is a very bad combination. Please never smoke again, ok?”

“Oh doc. You are right, but how? It is very difficult to control myself. Do you have any other patient waiting for you?”

“No, don’t worry, i have time. We can keep talking.”

“I really wished to quit smoking, but my friends… Whenever i decided to quit, they offered me. It was always at the critical time. So, i could not stop myself. What do you suggest me?”

“Tracy, you have HIV. You have a very bigger risk than others.”

“Risks about?”

“About infections, especially chronic infections which may convert to cancer.”

“Oh, really?”

“Yes, but do not worry. All you have to do is to take care of yourself, take your medicines and quit smoking. Smoking is very bad for your immune system and cardiovascular system.”

“I understand. So, how can i?”

“First of all you need to believe in yourself, ok?”

“It is really hard Sir.”

“You can do it. Allah gave you this power. You must have self control. You actually have, but you should strengthen it. This starts with a real, strong decision. Say this to yourself.

“I can do it. I will quit this. I will get rid of this and i will survive.”

Do this every morning. Ok?”

“Ok Sir, and then?”

“Draw a simple table. One column is for the dates, other is for the numbers of cigarette you smoked. If you can not stop yourself smoking, count the numbers of cigarette you smoked. And write it on this table. Do this everyday. And come back to me, we can talk about it. Also, if you want, here i have a print, take this paper and do it, ok?”

“Oh, wow. Ok Sir. I will do it. Thank you so much.”

Tracy left and Bilal entered to the room.

“Sir, she stayed too long. I hope everything is ok?”

“Ok, Bilal. Thank Allah. I am sad for those people. They are poisoning their life with material and spiritual viruses. The Satan has a lot of instruments to poison people. We have to work very hard.”

“Sir, you are really trying your best. You are working for those people in that Campers district. They are usually poor people. That girl, she is one of the rich people. You also help them.”

“Being poor and rich is not important boy. We all have to take care everybody. We are also responsible from our neighborhood, co workers, people living in our city. Maybe, even all world. Because the world is very small right now. We have to help people. The human is not created just for fun. We have an aim to be in this world.”

The end of adventure for now…

Bilal and Hussain were like real and close brothers. They worked together for a very long time. Bilal took care of himself very well, he followed his advices. After he became 20, he married Anna Creek who was also HIV positive. Anna was older than him, but they liked each other. After a few years later than their marriage, Samantha died because of another heart attack.

Tracy used the method of Hussain about quitting smoking. She reduced the amount of cigarette she smoked. Finally, she quit smoking but she never delayed her visits to doctor. After quitting, her blood tests got much better. She also lived happily with HIV.

About Mariam, she kept loving her husband Hussain. She was jealous of him, but he always trusted Hussain. And Hussain never disappointed him. And one day Hussain decided to help Syrian people escaped from the war. Mariam was so worried, but he decided to help them at Turkey border. His decision was to work at summer holiday for three weeks there. But, what were waiting for him in the border? He also decided to have a Turkey tour with his family. Mariam accepted finally. And they were going to Turkey. Bilal and Anna kept working at same places. What were waiting for them also?

And The Snake, he was trying all he can to get rid of going jail. His emperor was about to finish. But he was decisive to build it back.

To be continued...

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